Random Thoughts

Just sitting around and bored out of my mind. I got to thinking about December. As a project manager, in June, we start focusing on the end of the year and what needs to be done in 2014. That got me thinking about my personal goals. Why is December so important to me? It's the end of the year. It's holds major holidays (mine being Christmas) and my husbands birthday (Christmas Day). It's cold. I could go on and on. But the thing that made Christmas time miserable for me last year was that I was unhealthy, unhappy, and super self-conscious! I've been struggling all year with my weight-loss journey. Having a hormone imbalance/PCOS-whatever makes things really hard. I was so unhappy last year that I didn't want to take a family Christmas picture for Christmas cards! And any pictures I did take were head shots, sitting & holding pillows or hiding behind someone else. I want to take pictures again. More like, enjoy being photogenic. I want to take pictures with my husband and my four legged fur baby and be content with where I am with my body. I don't want to be worried about how big my butt is or if my belly/back rolls are showing. Most people use vacation or summer as motivation. And it's good until your vacation has come and gone. Then everyone is so concerned with New Years' Resolutions that they waste time and money on crappy weight loss antics. Those resolutions hardly ever make it past January. You have to really want it to get it. Not focus on a date or thing to begin losing weight.

My goal is to be comfortable with my body by the time Christmas pictures need to be taken (probably November). I'm not sticking a number on it because a number is useless. You lose and gain so much that the number isn't an accurate measurement. I would use inches but I don't have a good estimate for that. So, I will go with pant sizes. I am still in a 14. Have been all year. It's just more comfortable now. My goal is to be in a 10-12 by Christmas. Those where the jeans I wore through college. I have big hips so I will never be a 2-4. I might be lucky to wear an 8 but I've never worn an 8 (that I can remember). So, I'm taking it one pant size at a time. Levi's brand (because I still own the size 12 Levi's I wore in high school and those were my fat jeans) will be the sizes I go by. I believe it's the 515 (don't hold me to that)? I will be so happy to fit back into those jeans (they made my butt look great).

SO... Christmas... You're mine. Watch out, I'm coming for you. And Thanksgiving, I'll be thankful but I won't show it by eating the food I'm thankful for. I will be donating a majority of food to the hungry and only keeping the healthy stuff. Keeping it clean like Jesus, the Nazarene! I think I need to make a t-shirt! ;)