AHH!!! I'm back!!! I went on vacation and it was awesome! Not as awesome as it could have been but pretty epic. I went snorkeling!!! And got toasted! (Not intentionally, unfortunately). I wasn't as excited as I had hoped because I wasn't where I wanted to be physically but... I didn't get stared at and scoffed at like a beached whale! Honestly, I felt pretty good once I got out there. But it's the best motivation because I felt disgusted at myself. Like, "You are decent to not scare the little children... But you are not in a good place right now. Go workout." and then, I check out the gym... It's $15 a day! Sorry, I didn't plan on paying for a gym membership on vacation. I was expecting it to be FREE (Since the condo stated it had access to the gym!). smh. So, I resorted to stumbling across the sandy beach, walking up and down the boardwalk/pier, and swimming. And I probably gained some weight (too scared to check) due to all of the good food. Mostly fish and veggies and fruit but there were a lot of yummy sweet fruity drinks, snacks and unhealthy food like burgers and ribs and fries! Not the best idea to say you're going to stick to working out and clean eating on the first real vacation you've had in years. lol
Joking aside, I got back in the gym today. Busted my butt on the elliptical and stairmaster (not literally) and had a killer ab & arm workout. Apple & yogurt for breakfast. Leftover Olive Garden for lunch. Hopefully, a yummy salad from Newk's for dinner. We usually do our meal prep on Monday's but since we haven't been grocery shopping yet, it will have to wait until tomorrow.
Tomorrow's workout... dundunDUNNNN... LEG DAY!! Whoohooo! I'm excited! Really. I am.
Monday morning workout. I had NO energy at all. I didn't get out of bed on time. I didn't get to the gym on time. I didn't even finish my workout on time! And... It took me so long to get ready and get to work. It's just sad! I'm 20-freakin-3 years old! I shouldn't be this tired! I should be energetic and excited and happy! But I'm not. (I'm seriously screwed up ya'll). Anyways... I'm uploading this post on Wednesday, 5/13. Pretty sad, right? Anyways, this week has been dragging on. I'm so tired and depressed. I haven't felt good this week. I missed my workout yesterday and this morning. I'm pushing for a workout tonight but I feel like I'm about to take a nap at my desk. Yes, I get my 8 hours of sleep. I went to sleep at 10PM last night! And I couldn't even wake up by 7am! That's 9 hours!
I'm so frustrated... Besides the lethargy, I haven't lost any weight! I've been eating under my calories level. WebMD states I should be eating ~1700 calories but I can't eat that much! I eat around 1200 calories and I'm satisfied. Usually if I eat more than 1200, I feel sick to my stomach and get headaches. I drink plenty of water. I carry around a 56oz jug I drink out of and refill 2x a day. More on days I workout. I eat fruits and veggies with a side of meat. I eat gluten free foods and cook balanced meals. I prep my meals 2x a week and my husband is actually eating some of my meals! I work out at least 4x a week and burn a minimum of 500 calories per workout.
I just don't get it. RAWR! But I'm not giving up. I will continue to work hard and get rid of all of this excess fat. I will continue to eat healthy and complete meals. I just wish I could feel hungry and energetic. Those are the two feelings I haven't felt since high school. Anyways... Enough for today. Below are my stats for Monday's workout and motivation for the rest of the week.
I'm a bit confused but I know it can happen. You can gain muscle (increase in weight) & lose inches at the same time. I've lost over six inches around my body (approximate) in the past 7 days. I've been doing a lot of strength training at the gym (very little cardio) and eating healthy. I feel smaller but look the same. :( I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Yes, I want to build new strong muscle, but I want to lose fat/weight. I'm going to talk to a personal trainer tomorrow tonight to see if I'm doing something wrong. I feel the results (soreness, etc) so I know its all working. I just don't see the scale moving in my favor. It's a bit depressing. I'm restricting my calories (not outrageous) and limiting my intake to high protein, high fiber & low carb foods. Keeping it as clean and gluten-free as possible. My meal prep for the week has been grilled chicken, deviled eggs & brussel sprouts. Breakfast is usually an apple and/or Herbalife shake with almond milk. Snacks are varied between greek yogurt, nuts/dried fruit, etc.
*Having a rough week with Grant being in Canada/New York (Places I've always wanted to go and he went without me because it's a work trip). Boohoo. Anyways, I'm super happy for him and proud of him to be able to go to awesome places.*
Motivation for this week:
