Monday morning workout. I had NO energy at all. I didn't get out of bed on time. I didn't get to the gym on time. I didn't even finish my workout on time! And... It took me so long to get ready and get to work. It's just sad! I'm 20-freakin-3 years old! I shouldn't be this tired! I should be energetic and excited and happy! But I'm not. (I'm seriously screwed up ya'll). Anyways... I'm uploading this post on Wednesday, 5/13. Pretty sad, right? Anyways, this week has been dragging on. I'm so tired and depressed. I haven't felt good this week. I missed my workout yesterday and this morning. I'm pushing for a workout tonight but I feel like I'm about to take a nap at my desk. Yes, I get my 8 hours of sleep. I went to sleep at 10PM last night! And I couldn't even wake up by 7am! That's 9 hours!

I'm so frustrated... Besides the lethargy, I haven't lost any weight! I've been eating under my calories level. WebMD states I should be eating ~1700 calories but I can't eat that much! I eat around 1200 calories and I'm satisfied. Usually if I eat more than 1200, I feel sick to my stomach and get headaches. I drink plenty of water. I carry around a 56oz jug I drink out of and refill 2x a day. More on days I workout. I eat fruits and veggies with a side of meat. I eat gluten free foods and cook balanced meals. I prep my meals 2x a week and my husband is actually eating some of my meals! I work out at least 4x a week and burn a minimum of 500 calories per workout.

I just don't get it. RAWR! But I'm not giving up. I will continue to work hard and get rid of all of this excess fat. I will continue to eat healthy and complete meals. I just wish I could feel hungry and energetic. Those are the two feelings I haven't felt since high school. Anyways... Enough for today. Below are my stats for Monday's workout and motivation for the rest of the week.

Another late post. I got into work late and had a ton of stuff to work on. :/ Anywho... Wednesday was a blast! I started out on the Total Body Trainer Elliptical for 15 minutes. The usual. Then I did abs & upper body. Abs: toning exercises, crunches, bicycles, side-to-sides w/ 8lb ball, modified crunches w/8lb ball, "knee-tucks", 3 machines etc. Upper body: lateral pulldowns, extensions, curls, row, etc. Abs wore me out but upper body was rough. However, when I got home, I could only feel soreness in one arm (more like one muscles). Definitely going to have to look into that. I can do legs and be so sore the same day but not arms? Idk. I want to see if we can get in some pushups/pullups. Once I finished the strength training, I hopped on the StairMaster. YES! I stayed on the StairMaster for 15 minutes and finished up my workout for the day. Total time: 1.5 hours. Calories: 562! So happy and I was actually sweaty! Woohoo!

5/6/13 (Monday morning) was a killer workout! But I had so much fun! I burned 575 calories in the 1.5 hours I was at the gym working out. I started out with 15 minutes on the Total Body Elliptical Trainer. I went on to stretch and do some basic core workouts. Then I met up with Jessica (my AWESOME personal trainer) and got my butt kicked! We did free-weight routine today which was a mix of upper & lower body exercises. A variety of squats & lunges with curls & extensions at the same time! Talking about boosting my heart rate! And I looked like a doofus and was laughing the entire time to keep for saying other choice words. lol. It was strenuous to say the least. Then my semi-sadistic personal trainer (not really - inside joke) decided to introduce me to the StairMaster (more like reintroduce - It's been almost 2 years since I've seen one). I had a 15 minute workout set on random (crazy of me to agree with Jessica). But, I really enjoyed it. Plus, I had all of these little old men come up to me and congratulate me for working hard. Kind of annoying because I'm one who keeps to myself during cardio but it was nice.

Later that night, I was dancing around the house to my Fast & Furious Pandora station (mix of latin artists, hip-hop & dubstep). I wish I had my HRM for that one. ;) Acting a fool and having a blast. Haven't felt that energetic in a long time. But a few hours later (after I settled down), I literally crawled into bed. I was so sore & stiff. I knew without a doubt it was going to take a long time to wake up the next morning (it did... all 15 minutes of slowly moving toward the edge of the bed. LOL). But, again, I enjoyed it. I'm alive and I can endure it. I'm pushing my body to it's limits at the gym and feeling the rewards when I get home. I feel better, more energetic & less depressed. I can focus (even though I still have headaches) and get work done. I just wish I could wake up early. That's still my biggest problem. The fatigue is still there in the mornings. I can get up to meet my personal trainer but no other time. I've got to figure that one out.